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November 14, 2018 Coron, Palawan, Philippines
All these years, I have lived a well-planned life. Okay, mostly. I've always had my planner with me, a pen, notebook, notepad or anything that I could use for jotting down.
I want my day to be planned to avoid unfavorable circumstances. I was afraid to make mistakes for having to allow things to flow in many different ways. I want everything to go as planned. Most of the time, I succeed but there are times that I don't and it frustrates me. It takes me down. So now, I don't want to force things to happen anymore. I won't try so hard to control my life.
It's not easy but slowly, I'm learning to just let things be.
Not all the things that I want will fall into my lap but I'm sure what's meant for me will eventually find me. I'm not going to be passive but I won't fight a losing battle.
I’m trying to be patient with myself. Taking it easy on myself and my plans seem hard but it helps. I’m learning to be kind to myself when I fall while making my dreams come true.
I’m learning to forgive myself for my mistakes and let them be lessons instead of labels. I’m learning to let these mistakes prove that I’ve tried; that I didn’t always play it safe, that I went for things I was unsure of and that I took chances.
I'm slowly learning to take a longer route without caring whether I get lost because at the end of it, I know I'll find my place. I’m learning that I won’t always get what I want but life will give me what I need.
It's not easy but slowly, I'm learning to just let things be.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
May 6, 2017 Boracay, Malay, Philippines
Before anything else, I'd like you to know that this is long and very personal so I don't expect you to read the whole post but it would really mean a lot to me if you'll stick with me 'til the end.
Late last year, I made a huge decision which led me to where I am today—almost quarter life crisis. Yikes. I didn't regret it though I had a lot of what-ifs: what if I did not quit? What if I choose the other one? What if I didn't aspire to be part of something great? Or what I thought was something great. Would it all make a difference?
I called myself a fool for trying so hard to be what I want to be and fail at it. I put myself down because I thought, I wasn't good enough. My fear came back. My fear of taking chances, taking risks and taking every possibility in the world to make my dream come true. I blamed other people for that mistake. I was so in denial. And the most painful part of the situation is knowing that I had no one to blame but myself because it was my choice. I chose to be there. I chose to do that. It's all me.
And that didn't stop there. Instead of getting back to my usual grind, I STOPPED CREATING. I just focused on my job. It was okay and involves everyday adrenaline, but I got so comfortable that I didn't bother to read anything, write on my blog and even reply to emails that could possibly lead to great opportunities (I'm really sorry for that). I was a rebel against myself and it's really frustrating the hell out of me.
And whenever I try to get back to my usual grind and do the things I really like, something slaps me to stay away from them. No matter how hard I try to stand up, something is pulling me down. Then one sunny afternoon, I read a newsletter from my email. It says all the things I was feeling since my project went down. It hits me so hard that it made me want to do crazy stuff again.
But you know what, in spite of all the things that happened, I know it was worth the risk. Because that's what I wanted. The project was gone in a flash but I quite found myself. I fell but I stood. I was hurt but now stronger. Getting back up for me was hard, though I'm still at a recovery point, I'm on my way back to where and who I was before this downfall came.
You see, if you're stuck in a situation where you think it's the end, well it's not.
There are people who are willing to help you, even unintentionally like what happened to me, thanks to that newsletter and the person who wrote it, and there are things around you that could get your feet kicking again. You just have to stay focus because most of the time, it's the little things that help us big time!
If you're going through something, do not hesitate to share them in the comments box below or send me an email, let's talk. Or if you don't want to talk, let me just listen. I could be your online friend. I could be your online sister. Promise, I'll reply to you if you want me to :)
And now let's talk about my outfit here. I've always loved the thought of wearing maxi dresses because they look so comfortable and classy. Mine was everything I have imagined it to be. This dress basically caught me because it's very girly and summery. I now have a go-to summer look. What's yours? :)
May 14, 2012
My friends say that as time goes by, I'm leveling up. Hahaha! That sounds funny (for me at least XD). When they saw my pictures wearing swimsuits, they were surprised because they never thought that the most mahiyain at mahinhin in class would wear such. But look at me now, I'm more matured than before. That's what they always say. :D In fact, I didn't imagine myself wearing swimsuits 'cause I never really want to wear those. It was sapilitan and to please my mom. Sayang naman kasi 'pag hindi ko sinuot 'yung binili niya for me and this swimsuit cost too much just to be wasted. And besides, spending too much just for a swimsuit is a lot. (Too much redundancy hahaha!) And that's one reason why I don't like wearing swimsuits. They cost a lot but the cloth is less than a yard :|
Swimsuit from Sassa at Robinson's Galleria | White top from Puerto Galera
April 11, 2012
NOTE: This photos are not latest. They were taken last year, by yours truly.
If you could see, I just posted this because of my own interest. I remembered how we spent 3 days in Puerto Galera in Oriental Mindoro, Philippines. Besides, I don't have any photos yet, this summer, to share with you. We always have our vacation every May because of my Mom's work. She's not available during April for a summer trip.
It's nice to see a beautiful color blue of the water. It helps me to relax especially when I heard their waves.
Aren't they so cute? :O
When we're on the boat, I saw this yacht and thought of taking a photo of it.
This is what I call the "Secret Garden". This is the title of this picture when I submitted to a photo contest and won the Best Photography :))
I'm sorry. Hahaha! This is a stolen shot. Sorry for my ridiculous look. Forgive me, I'm just 16 that time. XD
The Mindorinne Hotel
Another stolen shot by my little sister.
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