May 6, 2017 Boracay, Malay, Philippines

How I Got Back Up After A Hard Downfall

Before anything else, I'd like you to know that this is long and very personal so I don't expect you to read the whole post but it would really mean a lot to me if you'll stick with me 'til the end.

Late last year, I made a huge decision which led me to where I am today—almost quarter life crisis. Yikes. I didn't regret it though I had a lot of what-ifs: what if I did not quit? What if I choose the other one? What if I didn't aspire to be part of something great? Or what I thought was something great. Would it all make a difference? 
I called myself a fool for trying so hard to be what I want to be and fail at it. I put myself down because I thought, I wasn't good enough. My fear came back. My fear of taking chances, taking risks and taking every possibility in the world to make my dream come true. I blamed other people for that mistake. I was so in denial. And the most painful part of the situation is knowing that I had no one to blame but myself because it was my choice. I chose to be there. I chose to do that. It's all me.

And that didn't stop there. Instead of getting back to my usual grind, I STOPPED CREATING. I just focused on my job. It was okay and involves everyday adrenaline, but I got so comfortable that I didn't bother to read  anything, write on my blog and even reply to emails that could possibly lead to great opportunities (I'm really sorry for that). I was a rebel against myself and it's really frustrating the hell out of me.

And whenever I try to get back to my usual grind and do the things I really like, something slaps me to stay away from them. No matter how hard I try to stand up, something is pulling me down. Then one sunny afternoon, I read a newsletter from my email. It says all the things I was feeling since my project went down. It hits me so hard that it made me want to do crazy stuff again.

But you know what, in spite of all the things that happened, I know it was worth the risk. Because that's what I wanted. The project was gone in a flash but I quite found myself. I fell but I stood. I was hurt but now stronger. Getting back up for me was hard, though I'm still at a recovery point, I'm on my way back to where and who I was before this downfall came. 

You see, if you're stuck in a situation where you think it's the end, well it's not. 

There are people who are willing to help you, even unintentionally like what happened to me, thanks to that newsletter and the person who wrote it, and there are things around you that could get your feet kicking again. You just have to stay focus because most of the time, it's the little things that help us big time!

If you're going through something, do not hesitate to share them in the comments box below or send me an email, let's talk. Or if you don't want to talk, let me just listen. I could be your online friend. I could be your online sister. Promise, I'll reply to you if you want me to :)

And now let's talk about my outfit here. I've always loved the thought of wearing maxi dresses because they look so comfortable and classy. Mine was everything I have imagined it to be. This dress basically caught me because it's very girly and summery. I now have a go-to summer look. What's yours? :)

Dress from Gamiss

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  1. This post was so amazing dear. And the pictures... I absolutely loved it!


  2. This post is so great. I love the fact that someone's newsletter spoke to you. Beautiful dress as well.


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  4. i can relate to you here , glad you got through it:) this dress is so gorgeous ....i love the peach xD and the beach adds a great vibe to the post!
    happy life,

  5. Beautiful outfit and photo
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  6. very lovely and inspiring post!
    followed you on GFC, please do follow back~ ^^
    let's keep in touch!


  7. You are so beautiful and I love your dress!
    Love, Paola.

  8. interesting

  9. I appreciate a lot reading your story and it is very helpful to relate to other humans problems.
    you look beautiful.

  10. Beautiful pictures! *.*
    You look amazing!

  11. You look gorgeous! I love the way how you write. I'm following your blog and I'm waiting for more posts!

  12. Beautiful Outfit.I really love your dress and the photos are gorgeous.

  13. A beautiful dress :)

  14. Such a lovely outfit!
    Xoxo, Victoria

  15. I can relate to your story in so many ways, but I always thank God that I didn't give up and won't give up. We're more than conquerors, but the devil likes to play with our minds that we ain't good enough and we're weak. Battlefield of the mind is real. Good to hear that you've risen above it all.
    You look simply gorgeous in this floral number. Thanks for visiting my blog. I'm following you via GFC as requested please. Hope to see you among my followers soon.
    Good Day, beautiful! :)

    1. I totally agree with you! Giving up should not be an option. :)

  16. Nice outfit are stunning <3

  17. first of all I want to say that your background is pretty...
    and your dress is pretty too...

    I think I can relate with your story.
    in my case, I've been went through so many crazy things at 2016.
    Last year were really hard and I was unhappy.
    too much things going on that I don't even bother to blogging at all.

    but this year,I feel more peaceful.
    like I slowly let go everything bad behind and try to be more positive.

    btw, lets be online friend :).

    1. I'm so happy to hear a part of your story. I think, these things are pretty normal for everyone that we go through rocks and mountains before we finally see the rainbow. At the end of the day, one thing's for sure, we'll find what truly makes us happy as long as we're on the right track. :)

      Keep in touch! ♥

  18. whata beautiful photos!!! I love your dress Dear,


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